I'M BACK!!!

sorry to neglect you my lovely reader type peoples (all 3 of you) but the smashing Army has consumed me for the last 6 weeks....and to believe I begged, wheedled and whinged my way onto AT with my unit...and I get there and am immediately disappointed....my favorite sargent turns out to be pissy about 50% of the time ("preform" for me?? I dont need you to "preform" for me!!!! I haven't been home in 5 fuckin weeks, and I'm keeping myself all up and vaguely cheerful and trying desperatly to be happy when all I want to do is go home to my moutians, and my garden, and my goats, and my family...i am scottish for the sake of little fishes, i miss my blessed clan!!! I'm away from loved ones too, and if you frown i want to see you smile, b/c i am a giver, and if my loved/ cared for persons hurt or are down, i want to fix it!! SO DONT BITE ME FRIGGIN HEAD OFF!!!!!!!) and the unit doesn't have a reg book in sight, not to mention NOT CARING if they have a reg book in site....I am going to be universally hated next drill....i did my work at the School of Music, I asked around, and waited for opennings, and asked pestering questions until i got every reg book site i could wrangle...and I WILL take them to the first sgt, and print them all off FOR EVERYONE if need be...
don't even get me started on regulation marching....
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok.....breathe...but i get here and i'll be damned if not one person really missed me...everyones too busy feeling sorry for themselves b/c they had to go do an EASY FRIKKIN job for 2 measly weeks...and yes...i'm proud to be a soldier...but i realize that my job is easy...i'm a national guard bandsmen....so it shouldn't be that hard to follow the rules..one weekend a month...or do PT...one weekend (at least) a month....drives me up the wall....i'll be active in 4-5 more years and i dont want to head back to the real army ate the hell up...
*le sigh*
i am tempted to give up....but i am stubborn..once i got over having my favorite sgt be a bit of an ass, i realized that there is a reason for everything...well most things...he is unfortunately a friend to one of the backstabbers....geez i hate army females....so the particular specialist in question inisists i took her seat next to a married man whom she hasn't the chance in the world with (EVEN A FOOL SUCH AS I CAN SEE THAT) and then spends a good hour talking trash about me...to a sargent to treats me as if i was one of his kids..so of course he warns me, and then i HAVE TO ROOM WITH HER TONIGHT......AHHH!! and i know she's just going to talk about how much she wants to sleep with this man, and such, and if i agree with her, b/c yes...he is attractive...she goes off on how much his wife would get me if she heard that...I at least understand that no matter how attractive I find this man, he is a sargent, and married and devoted to his wife (not that i would mess with a married man, i'm not a homewrecker, i stay away from ppls boyfriends too), and i have enough trouble with my own haphazard relationship (what with meeting a sweet guy who confused my insides all to hell at AIT) and its ups and very low, very enduring downs...so even if i found this man attractive its NOT GOING TO HAPPEN....be realistic you backstabbing twit...aggh...i need to go to bed...damn last ceramony....time to go back to my mountians and away from the things of man.....