Sunday, July 16, 2006

story time!

mwhahahaha....yes my pretties...i have another to post...so read it...please? :) (disregard the spelling problems...just..wince and keep reading)
-------------------------------------------

Edmund hated it. Edmuch despised every tiny pore on its face, and every speck of dust on its shirt. This wasnt how things were, it just couldn't be.The shining, dreamy white vestage was more pleasing. Not this casual, slack-dressed, short-haired, geeky personage. Where were the things Edmund had learned of and prepared for? After agreeing to host this exchange student, Edmund had gone through his days in a haze of gilt images. How could DeVinchi and Michalangelo have gotten it all so horribly wrong?

Edmund looked moodily down at the dinner he was preparing. No meat was a must, a stipulation that only slightly mollified Edmund's indinaties. No meat, but huge quantities of dairy products, great mounds of fruits and vegtables; and due to some metobolic quirk, gallons of coffee were also required. He hacked brutally down on an unsuspecting tubor, slicing and dicing with much more force than nessacary, sending bits of bewildered potato everywhere. He kept at the chopping for a bit, letting his frustration run its course. Whan at last he calmed, the small kitchen looked like an axe murderer had taken a dislike to an offensive carrot.

Gathering up the bits and pieces of the mutilated vegtables with a sigh, (there went his perfectly prepared entree) he mixed them togather and began to saute them slowly. His guest wouldnt care. He'd just serenly, smile over the ruined dinner, and ask Edmund how his day had been. Polite, calm and intellegent. At least his guest's emotions were on par with the propagated image. That, but nothing else. The guest wouldn't answer questions, he'd just smile and deflect Edmund with ease, talking of what he had observed whilst Edmund was at work. Edmund was hopeless at pinning his guest down, inexprianced at asking deep probing questions. Usually people talked to Edmund. Spilled their souls to him, talking through years and expriances, loves and loathings. Edmund was just one of those guys people felt, insinctively, that they could talk to. The guests instincts were either out to lunch, or he had remarkable self restraint.

Edmund placed dinner on the table, looking ruefully at the less-than-perfect quiche, and called Jeff (as he insisted on being called) to come and eat. They sat down, got through the normal, polite chit-chat and than began to eat silently. Halfway through his salad, Jeff looked up.

"The devil is a black dog." Jeff said, munching a speared cucumber.
Edmund nearly choked on his Italian dressing.
"What did you say?" Edmund finally managed to hack out.
Calmly Jeff regarded him, fork poised, loaded with bib lettuce, carrots and cucumber slices.
"I said, the devil is a black dog," Jeff looked at his tempting fork load. "with six red eyes and simply obnoxious mannerisms." The fork's contents disappeared into Jeff's mouth.

Edmund could only stare. Weeks it had been. Weeks of the tiring dinner routine, silent bedtimes, and uneventful mornings. What his guest has said wasnt as astonishing as the fact that Jeff had said something. Than Edmund's brain caught up to Jeff's words. He lay his fork down. Jeff followed suit.

"I'll make you a deal" Jeff said, before Edmund could speak. "Dinner first, questions later."
Edmund nodded quickly and began to shovel dinner down as gracefully as he could manage. Jeff seemed in no hurry, and went on chewing with deliberation. To Edmund, the dinner seemed to drag on forever. Jeff insisted on eating each part of his dinner with his usual calm enjoyment.

Edmund was fairly wriggiling with impatience by the time Jeff had finished his plate of food. Without bothering to wash the dishes, he placed them in the sink ( much as he would have loved to just fling them and go, they were his late grandmere's favorite plates) and fairly sprinted back to the apartment's main room.

Jeff sat near the picture window. The window was the reason Edmund had brought that particular apartment. It wasnt the low price, or the proximity of the river, but the huge double paned windows that let Edmund see for miles on clear days.

Jeff gazed out the windows, apprently watching the birds that visited Edmund's window boxes. Edmund took the other window seat.

"Now, " said Edmund; "the Devil."
Jeff took a moment to answer. He never did anything with haste, always appearing to deliberate everything he said.

"Yes." Jeff sighed. "You wanted to here about the black dog below." He paused. " And you want me to explain why my description fits your dreams."
Edmund started a bit, than looked hard at Jeff.
"How? How can you know what I have dreamed?"
Jeff smiled.
"You talk in your sleep. And I asked."
Edmund sighed, closed his eyes and began to rub his temples.
" I should have known." He muttered in the direction of the cat-smug angel across from him.

-------------------------------------------------------
thats it, but i think it does rather nicely ending at that point...hmm..might extend it...what do you think? not that it matters, but i like feedback :)

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

ha

baby deer like cheerios!!!!! "oh my...this is funny" *thank you doc holiday, Tombstone*

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

teehee

the blond thing known as my loved little sister got me a new t-shirt at the Highland Games....daniel thought it quite apt...is says "Celtic Woman....a goddess with a temper"
fofl.....i loved it!!
and i finally got a clan Sinclair shirt...and Clann An Drumma is no more!!! the old codger quit and now they are called Albannac, or some such...dunno if i like the change....we'll see....

damn

damn
just hurt my sister....not intentionally, of course...but her ex...byron...the one who killed himself right before i left for AIT (such a selfish horrible thing to do...and now my sister blames herself because she thought she could save him...and they broke up a year ago...why do people kill themselves? why would you leave the rest of us behind like that? i mean, i didn't care for him, or him for me, but he hurt my sister...and still does...and he let his friends find him...how...selfish)
but anyway..i mentioned to my sister that i got to go to a hookah "bar" in raleigh...and she looked pained and asked the name...and yes, it was the one byron used to work at...my big stupid clumbsiness...i should have remembered he used to work there....i feel like an ox...

*eep*
people love me...
how unexpected...
and...
quite nice :)

---------------------------------

how to fix someone who does not think they are worthy of being fixed? or maybe i phrased that wrong...the sweet boy who confused my insides at AIT hurts...and i do not know what i can do from boone NC to fix a boy(well...not technically a boy, he's 22) in Norfolk VA...espcially a boy who considers himself not worth my effort...he is a good person...and i cannot help but hurt with him...maybe this is why i let myself love so few ppl....i just end up hurting for them...and trying to save them...mum says you cannot save everyone...but i cannot just stand there and let someone so WORTH IT not know that they are loved...*sigh* i wont give up...

-----------------------------------

so....david bowie...DAMN...just saw the movie Labyrinth....wow-ee....goblin king or not...sheesh...hotness...

---------------------------------
and i still feel bloody awful.....coughing hurts....breathing hurts..i cant smoke....grrrr...and the baby deer hates me....bleah...time for the doctor i think...trust me to be barely able to function before i drag my self to the hospitial....i hate hospitals....

Monday, July 10, 2006

home

I'm goin' back
to where I come from
where the honeysuckle smells so sweet
it durn near makes you sick

I used to think
my life was humdrum-
that i was bound to learn a lesson
that was bound to stick

I took my hat
and 14 dollars
and i went to all the trouble
of the life that always follows
when your rich
and huntin' romance,
well my huntin' days are over i can tell you that
I met a girl
in San Fran-cisco
and she said she'd take me to
all the hottest spots in town
but there were things
she had to fix up
so she took my 14 dollars,
but there must have been a mix up
she's been gone
since friday evening
and i doubt i'll ever see that gal no more

I'm goin' back
to where i come from
where tha mockin' birds are singin'
in the lilac bush

I used to think
my life was humdrum
but my wandering days are over
i can tell you that

when i grow up
and have a grandson
i'll tell him 'bout my romance,
and i'll watch his eyes light up

but chances are
he wont believe me
and he'll do tha same durn thing
when he grows up
no doubt

--------------------------------------------
my mum used to sing this song while she milked cows...dunno where it came from, but its how i feel right now
--------------------------------------------

i woke up about half way up the mountain on the way back home...and saw 20 cows standing in a stream watching the cars go by...and i knew i was home
its only been 6 weeks, i know....but still...i missed my mountains..its a bit tainted by the fact that i'm wheezing like a race horse who just broke its wind, but still...its home

Sunday, July 09, 2006

I'M BACK!!!

sorry to neglect you my lovely reader type peoples (all 3 of you) but the smashing Army has consumed me for the last 6 weeks....and to believe I begged, wheedled and whinged my way onto AT with my unit...and I get there and am immediately disappointed....my favorite sargent turns out to be pissy about 50% of the time ("preform" for me?? I dont need you to "preform" for me!!!! I haven't been home in 5 fuckin weeks, and I'm keeping myself all up and vaguely cheerful and trying desperatly to be happy when all I want to do is go home to my moutians, and my garden, and my goats, and my family...i am scottish for the sake of little fishes, i miss my blessed clan!!! I'm away from loved ones too, and if you frown i want to see you smile, b/c i am a giver, and if my loved/ cared for persons hurt or are down, i want to fix it!! SO DONT BITE ME FRIGGIN HEAD OFF!!!!!!!) and the unit doesn't have a reg book in sight, not to mention NOT CARING if they have a reg book in site....I am going to be universally hated next drill....i did my work at the School of Music, I asked around, and waited for opennings, and asked pestering questions until i got every reg book site i could wrangle...and I WILL take them to the first sgt, and print them all off FOR EVERYONE if need be...
don't even get me started on regulation marching....
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok.....breathe...but i get here and i'll be damned if not one person really missed me...everyones too busy feeling sorry for themselves b/c they had to go do an EASY FRIKKIN job for 2 measly weeks...and yes...i'm proud to be a soldier...but i realize that my job is easy...i'm a national guard bandsmen....so it shouldn't be that hard to follow the rules..one weekend a month...or do PT...one weekend (at least) a month....drives me up the wall....i'll be active in 4-5 more years and i dont want to head back to the real army ate the hell up...
*le sigh*
i am tempted to give up....but i am stubborn..once i got over having my favorite sgt be a bit of an ass, i realized that there is a reason for everything...well most things...he is unfortunately a friend to one of the backstabbers....geez i hate army females....so the particular specialist in question inisists i took her seat next to a married man whom she hasn't the chance in the world with (EVEN A FOOL SUCH AS I CAN SEE THAT) and then spends a good hour talking trash about me...to a sargent to treats me as if i was one of his kids..so of course he warns me, and then i HAVE TO ROOM WITH HER TONIGHT......AHHH!! and i know she's just going to talk about how much she wants to sleep with this man, and such, and if i agree with her, b/c yes...he is attractive...she goes off on how much his wife would get me if she heard that...I at least understand that no matter how attractive I find this man, he is a sargent, and married and devoted to his wife (not that i would mess with a married man, i'm not a homewrecker, i stay away from ppls boyfriends too), and i have enough trouble with my own haphazard relationship (what with meeting a sweet guy who confused my insides all to hell at AIT) and its ups and very low, very enduring downs...so even if i found this man attractive its NOT GOING TO HAPPEN....be realistic you backstabbing twit...aggh...i need to go to bed...damn last ceramony....time to go back to my mountians and away from the things of man.....